6 Oct 2025

 I had a crazy week.

It was quite emotional as we have lost a "yet to come to earth" family member.
Whole family was grieving and I can only do my part in assuring and encouraging them. 

Sometimes, life just hits in the way that you did not plan for. 
The only way is to keep your chin up, and continue to move forward with the highest life force. 

Work has been hectic as well, as I have been engaged in calls many hours daily to support a client.
It was mentally draining and it has taken a toll on me. I had headaches the past few days, and was not able to sleep well. 

I was super frustrated as I felt that I had less and less control over my life and the things I wanted to do. I felt that many things I am doing or intend to do had to be "approved" by people around me and I need to seriously get myself out of this rut. I may be overly concerned or thinking and I just had to push on. 

I wonder if I should really pick up boxing/muay thai again as it is probably causing this lack of discipline that I am having now. I have been gymming more yes and also getting bigger. i need to be more disciplined in my diet and really work on my physique. However, to sign up for martial arts requires another set of finances which I may not want to commit considering I have other more important expenses. 

I need to review and evaluate all these again. 

Of course, I have my fair share of family musings. Won't go into detail for now. 

Till the next post i guess. 

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